It would be very difficult to stand out and develop your own identity in such a crowd. Most definitely. And though you've had (and have) your trials and tribulations, it seems like you have and are stepping out of the family mold and thinking/doing for yourself. For that, you should be very proud. It would have been easy to be just another branch on the family tree... growing in a different direction is something you should take pride in. *HUGS*